How I became able to perform freely as a guitarist

As a composer, guitarist and singer I used to hate playing solo in front of people for fear of being ridiculed and wanted to smash up my guitar whenever I made mistakes! Despite this, I would often get enthusiastic feedback from my audiences. This went on for a number of years until I realised that something had to change: either I gave up being a musician or worked on feeling free on stage so I could appreciate what I was doing as much or more than my audiences, despite “imperfections”.
In a nutshell: I took a firm decision to become free and 2 weeks later was offered the chance to play with a Bavarian comedian/musician celebrity on state television for whom I had done recording for his CD previously. At first I told him (Willy Astor) that I was busy on that date but after putting the phone down I realised this was an excellent opportunity to achieve my goals. Despite fear I called him back, to confirm that I was actually free, and committed myself.

I forced myself to play much harder solo pieces in front of unofficial audiences as much as I could before the gig where I was to play a simple accompaniment. The concert went really well and all the musicians were likeable and easy-going. I wasn’t nervous and could hardly believe that! This lead on to further gigs at 4 of the most famous venues in Munich and surroundings, including a further TV performance and audiences of between 1500 and 2000. In the middle of all this I had envisioned my final goal of feeling free, playing a challenging solo piece of my own in front of 1000 people, for example in the flamenco style. Just after this and without having mentioned any of the above story to my colleagues, the main guitarist in the band said that I should do some improvisation at the next gig! I knew this was another fantastic opportunity and took it gratefully. It went well I wasn’t nervous!

After this performing solo became a breeze generally speaking but it wasn’t until about 4 years later that I realised I had achieved my goal after having performed 3 fairly challenging solo compositions of my own in front of 1000 people at a church for the funeral of the brother of a girlfriend who tragically died young whilst snowboarding. It was freezing cold and the church and I had to use hand warmers but I was both touched and happy to support the family of the deceased and was completely free in my mind as I performed. This was an unexpected backdrop to my goal but it also taught me yet again that when one focuses on providing value for others, it is perhaps the best way of feeling free as a performer, rather than concentrating on achieving a high standard per se, free from any imperfections!


Ich vermiete meine 2-Zimmer 45m qm EG Wohnung für 3 Monate – also voll möbliert. 1/2/2017 – 30/4/2017

Sehr nah am Schloss Nymphenburg / Kanälen, attraktiv, ruhig und grün mit Jugendstilbauten. 15 Minuten zum Hauptbahnhof. Supermärkte / Post u.s.w. gleich in der Nähe. €900 / Monat warm + €900 Kaution. Internet, deutsche Festnetzanrufe. 2 Zimmer  (eines mit Parkettboden, eines mit Hochbett – Doppelmatratze) plus separate Küche und Toilette + Dusche. Waschmaschine in der Wohnung. Gemeinschaftsgarten. Bitte nur Nichtraucher ohne Haustiere.

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I am renting out my 2-room 45m sq. ground-floor flat for 3 months – so fully furnished. 1/2/2017 – 30/4/2017

Very near to Nymphenburg Castle / canals, attractive, quiet and green area with Jugendstil buildings. 15 Mins to Hauptbahnhof. Supermarkets / post-office etc nearby. €900/month inclusive + 900 deposit. Internet, German landline calls. 2 rooms (one with hardwood floor, one with platform-bed, double)  plus separate kitchen and Toilet + shower. Washing machine in flat. Communal garden. Non-smokers with no pets only please.

Neighbours and landlord (top floor) very friendly.

Look forward to hearing from you!